Friday, December 11, 2009
this week has been kinda terrible?
if i were asked to sum up this week and pick the emotion I felt the most, it would be hurt? maybe mixed with a bit of anger.
but yeah. the week has totally been YUCKY> and being sick didn't help AT ALL.
whatever you say, whatever you do has been misunderstood. you try to be more friendly, more accepting, more encouraging... but nvm it's okay.. stop trying because you know the outcome will be a "FAILED attempt">
You think it's easy? I can tell you it's not. Maybe you'll try one day and tell me hurhur.... oh well
but yeah it's okay again.. because even if you do feel shitty, you have to act like all is well. that's the best part. You have the get that stupid emotion out of you so that you can focus on other better stuff. When everybody else just.....
you feel like running to somebody, but you realize hey, either they cannot be bothered, cannot understand whatever is going on.. or just simply owns too big a mouth. HEH. or worst till some act like they care shit loads but actually they're just there to gather information to... you know... maybe add a bit of their own creative juices and dramatize the whole situation.
okay nvm SIDETRACK.
did transcribing today! and i must say i had my fun! really, work is the only SHIT thing that gives me the sense of achievement.
yeah though i was sick i still had to go to school... totally couldn't be bothered to smile at lecturers cos i just had no energy to and least i be called a boot licker. HURHUR
but yeah that just sums up my whole week. sucky much but had to go through it.. i guess it would stick with me for quite some time...
I'll never be able the questions asked by ang truthfully. cos i myself cannot give a definite answer. Just enjoy the rest of it. =)
`porkky! scribbled at 7:47 AM|
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Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Ah night out with friends! or should i say nightS.
First with Sharon and Peijun... super high people! and then today with Beat Mel and Chewchew. i must say i had my fun! though it was horrible being sick especially this morning. even climbing up the stairs was a reallll torture. like REAL.
but yeah the best part was seeing people grow. heh. loveee seeing people grow. maybe that'swhy i love my kiddies so much! =)
but yeah "hope you all are enjoying TEP". was that a trick question or what...
It's amazing how people can just use you without you even knowing. just to fish out info from you and once they got it, they throw you FAR FAR away.. they don't even bother to keep that friendship -.- you try to be nice and tlak to them or should i say TRY to tlak to them.. but nahhhh... it doesn't work. people ask you to go talk to the person.. and you heed their advice... yet still the other party just ignores. like WTH!
this kind of attitude I also don't wanna talk to you man! here i am trying... there you are showing me how sian you are and your freakking DAOness..
Well i guess that's the difference. URGH. just gets me pissed.
`porkky! scribbled at 6:23 AM|
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Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Thank you Dear Mr Jesus! =)
Well these two weeks have been hectic but good. Indeed you feel so blessed. =)
went back to office today.. and yes feeling sad once again. but that feelings always there when i go back. but however still thankful i managed to talk to them! caught up so so much! so glad the lecturers allowed me to go. =) YIPPEE DOODLES.
and yesss packing tapes again! whahahah! It was good packing tapes again! like yes i know it;s packing TAPES?!?! like labeling them!? HUH. but yeah it was good! it was FUN! it was just MOOO-TASTIC! whahaha!
HAPPY DAY!
`porkky! scribbled at 4:58 AM|
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Saturday, October 17, 2009
kinda looking forward to teaching tml!!
Claire's B'dae!! WOOHOOO. but abit sad cos i didn;t get her a present! OH NO!!!! how now brown cow.
but yeah! still excited! the kids will ahve so mnay sweets! cos they will get a goodie bag each!!! EXCITING! and it;s so good when the lesson is WE CAN HELP OUR FRIENDS!
i think i slept too much in the afternoon till I'm abit high now.
`porkky! scribbled at 8:27 AM|
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Thursday, October 08, 2009
when the stars refuse to shine and time is no more...You'll still be faithful, You'll still be faithful O Lord.AMEN to that.
`porkky! scribbled at 5:16 AM|
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Sunday, October 04, 2009
i miss the days where i'm supervised. where i'm i guided, where i don't need to be taking responsibilty (at least not to such a stressing extend like now). miss the days where people would be willing to teach, and i mean teach properly. where there was encouragement instead of bleah bleah bleah.... whatever.
i miss the days even though there was SO MUCH teasing, i miss the days where we there was fun and work! and i feel efficient. i feel good doing work, i feel good being productive. i reallly miss those days.
tell me that i'm special even though i'm not.
`porkky! scribbled at 7:33 AM|
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Friday, October 02, 2009
i can't believe i am depressed over growing up.
but but but!! it was totally a good time spent with my classmates!
totally.
gosh. loved it.
ten years down the road. looking at what people think. and whether they sld continue with media. omg. thought provoking. VERY.
you think TEP is a hurdle.. wait for the rest. bleah.
`porkky! scribbled at 8:17 AM|
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