Saturday, November 19, 2005

leaders camp

one word. sucky.
ok la not really la.
but seriously, if you were to ask me
what i remember the most was the scoldings
and punishments.
i dunno WHY the *toot* we were getting so out of hand
till ms ho said "i dun have leaders like you all"
so you can just imagine how bad it was

fancy running up and down in 40 secs
on the bright side it made me feel fit
on the bad side. it was VERY tiring till tears were overwhelming
and changing in less than 5 mins. WOW
i was surprised with myself!

during this whole camp.
i cried every day.
the torture we went tru
the discipline from the officers.
well. we deserved them all.
cos we were not GOOD leaders.
and i have to admit at some parts.

so not looking to anymore of gb.
i'm scared to be a Platoon Commander lers.
it's texing.
i wish gb is not going to become a chore.

everytime i try. i really do try.
i try to split the work.
but no body listens and gets the work done.
thus i have to take action by doing it as time is limited.
and then i'll get the scolding.
for instance the flag.
Juniors tlaking back at you.
Juniors not listening to you.
Peers not being supportive.
Now how do i lead a bunch of people like tt??

well. all i can say is i'll do my BEST!!
i SOO wanna keep gb 4th coy's flag flying...

and form this camp.
i found out how biased ppl can be.
i dun want to name names.
but they are BIG ppl.
both in status and in age!
it was a real let down.
that brought a strain to my heart.
how do i serve a group of people like that?
please tell me.

everything is so not falling into place.
each time i look into their eyes.
fear fills my whole body.
trembling and raining tears. COOL.
i just hate my life!

i am not complaining here.
but just writing down my tots
after all it WAS and IS our fault.
`porkky! scribbled at 7:07 AM|

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