Sunday, May 28, 2006

oh well...
today Josiah and family left!
sad day...

didn't want to go find him since i knew if i did i wld cry..
but then! BOOM! he appeared!
and BOOM i ran to him without thinking..
and BOOM i started to cry.. cldn't control!

remmebering the past...
where he and tanya wld ALWAYS cry for mummy.
and HOLDING HANDS....
got daddy also no use.. MUST have mummy!!
then i wold always carry them..
thinking of all sorts of solutions to hwo to stop them from crying...
then i wld carry jo till he slept...
so sweett....

then like as they grew up...
they go to SUnday School without much difficulty!
like they are so independant now?
can even run about withour mummy or somebody they knew!
how they wld smile so muich now!
how they would go NO i LIKE blue!! (for jo)
and for NO i live pink!! (for tayna)
as i make fun of them...
haiyooo... i'll miss those times!
and like when JO will DUNNO WHY SUDDENLY SO DARING!!! come and poke me!!
and i'll play with him..
how i wld always bluff tayna that mummy's in the toliet and we'll wait out there...
when actually she's not... cos she's up there listening to the sermon and i dunwanna disturb her..
all the WHITE LIES i told!

oh my!! and then Jo said "JIEJIE michelle can you come to melbourne to study and visit me please?"
and like how to say no!? when by right i dun think i wld go..
didn't knwo hwo to ans him..
and then i'll go "will you all miss me?"
and then "YES" nodding their heads!!
oh my!!!
tears just roll down!

the next time they come back..
they'll be so big! and matured!!
and i hope they remember me!!!
i really sincerely do!



well i'll pray for them everyweek!
`porkky! scribbled at 12:13 AM|

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