Saturday, July 01, 2006

ok everything seems to be going wrong this week.
dad's taken over my studies..
parents are nagging like siao.
it seems like i am grounded..
i am stuck with a book in my hand all the time.
i think i;m going insane!!!!

like hello.. it doesn't mean when i'm not at home i'm not studying k!
you think i am nto studying cos you only see me when i am eating my meals.. or watching tv..
BUT!!! when i am studying i lock myself in the room.. and i BET you think i'm sleeping!?
so am i suppose to be like studying infront of you all the time..

like last night.. i studied till 3am kk!
and do you know?! NO! cos i'm in my room and you all think i'm sleeping...
i study till 12 every night.. do you all know!? SO NOT!
so wads the point man!
and everytime i sit down.. to relax..
you all ask me to go study.. and talk about how Jie is so smart and good in things..
OH WELL SHUT UP!
i have had enough!
i;m already trying k! the more you rub it in the more i'll give up!
like today! no point scolding and comparing me! cos you are making me lose my confidece.. and BOOM i dun wanna study anymore!
SO STOP IT!
I DUN LIKE IT EITHER!
URGH!.

i;m sad.. and wad do you all do? STARE at me with the angry look?
like hello ahve i OFFENDED you in any way with being sad?
my goodness! it's my life k!

anw i really thank God for helping me find my way back today..
to actually ask mum to sit down and do eng with me..
part of it is because i want them to SEE that i am studying. yup.
well it was a good time spent..

i enjoyed myself today at jiejie sumings and korkor gregs house!
it was like finally freedom!
`porkky! scribbled at 6:48 AM|

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