Leaving is going to be tough. but yeah i think i'm up to it. i have to tell myself so. It ain't as bad as it seems. I know Mr Jesus will guide me there.

I guess it really striked me when Baby Daniel cried. i thought he was crying cos he was having a whiny day... but nah... he cried cos he's an affectionate boy (according to melissa)... initially i was kinda like oh shit he is crying... but when i found out why, i couldn't help but cry too.. it's like he's 2.5yrs old and he understands all these emo stuff?! WTH! but yeah... seeing him cry made my heart ache. really ache.

I knew i'll be leaving since who knows how long ago... and every sunday worship would always end up in tears... but tt only happened during sundays. but now i think it's really sinking in... come on, it's only 4 days left.

but yeah i can't bear to leave? In a way i was looking forward to running away.. away from everything here.. glad that i had a door open. like perfect opportunity. but now... it's starting to turn the other way round. Especially after musical. like all the friendships that were lost have been built again and now it's time to leave it again. even the relationships with the adults. it sucks.

but i know all i need is to hear from you.